palawan with the class and had yummy dinner with jos ytd. *sorry for the sudden ps. my gastric just cldnt take the spicy food.* things are going at a much slower pace, but not for long. School is just not an easy job , at least to me. addicted to games once again. short holiday yet eadelin has already gained 5 kg. that what happens when i stop running, indulge in fried food and all. hohoho.
This yr Teachers' celebration was ________ n i didnt go back to any of my former schools.
wow. 3 am now. trying to sleep. urghs.

when i saw xinwei and selestine these few days, i guess i really miss them a lot. probably becos of all the exams and tests, i so wanna have a break now and catch up with them. wah lao. i miss those mahjong sessions at mao's hse la. and eadelin wants to go shopping! and i miss church too! TMR IS MY LAST PAPER! WOOHOOO!

CHEERS!!!!!!! the long awaiting moment has come. a historical moment one. singapore clinched back a silver medal! should have joined table tennis. HAH. so pissing to hear criticisms going around saying that they're not true sg'rean..arent most of our forefathers from china. dumb comments from the people.

oh gosh. head bombarded with pain.

love utopia

today was the official handover. a little boring but the formality instills the seriousness in the handover. it wasnt much of a fun thing as explained by the juniors. it seems like there is another handover, but more of a farewell like. Probably expected by many of us, Ali is now the official capt with ppc and huiyi as the wings. well, the result of cos wasnt pleasing. but somehow i went with the unpopular decision due to the future consequences predicted by 3 of us and Mr hafiz. i certainly believe there is more to improve for Ali in terms of teamwork and relationships. one of them got a little work up. to you, i share the same feelings as you. but our actions and words have to show maturity in order to get people to believe. i would say, start everything from anew, give each other a chance. no point holding tight to the mistakes of others, making urself so miserable. after all, it would only make others think badly of u. lovvvess..


and after listening to the jc2, i took back some of the advices. heres the sum up:

there may be things which we often drag our feet in doing them,
find ur passion n fun in doing those things. then u will learn how to enjoy and not procrastinate.
and as u doing it, put in ur heart and soul, therefore, a 100% effort. if u're not sure of the results, put in another 1% to assure it. work hard and play hard. balance these two aspects and u can go far. do not only look at the results but at the processes as well. becos valuable skills and qualities can be taken from there. run fast is one thing but run far is definitely an impt thing. don burn urself out. perservere and get disciplined. do not step out becos of the pain and discomfort. have positive mindset. success is not an overnight effort, it takes years to cultivate.

Truly.

just as i thought the nightmare has finally ended, it is truly scary to have found out that it has just begun. just as i thought no one is going to hurt me like those did in the past, i am so terribly wrong. my heart hurts so well like the past. i could hardly breathe and think anymore. that revenge u took is locking up in my head now. hope is gone. faith has dried up. can anyone hear my shout from the dark valley? a battle in the relationship. lonliness felt within. broken family. death is not the only solution but the best way out of all the hurts.

backview, coldness, frustration, pain.

are you willing to listen?

Joseph: today sucks
Eadelin: Why?

Joseph: it sucks becos of how some things work out, how some ppl got on my nerves, how some ppl say things hurtful ....how i could not spend every minute every hr everyday n every moment with that only one i love. i just wish i could lay down beside you and just spend the rest of my life and not think about any other things n ppl, just enjoying the peace and tranquility of that beautiful garden for my lover.

inorganic chem- horrible.
i'm feeling happy today!

it hurts to hear those words.
u probably don care.
i guess i'm so sick of arguments that,
i don wish to voice out anymore.
all i can do,
is to quietly wish for a better treatment from u.

23rd july: college run

CHAMPION!!!!

2nd- peter poh

3rd- ali

4th- eugene

5th- dunno who

6th- xue kai - hulk

7th... aiyah. cant be bothered.

on 6th july

we

Went to

to celebrate joseph's birthday.

the one facing the camera is boon kiat ( joseph's c2 mate )




bought 4 new ty bears again!

'm'ash

game time

peter poh- the 3rd party

the canoeists

look at joseph and hanjie

yummy!!

jiawei :X

screwed up face

so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

the 4 layers r " damn artistic " claimed by joseph

as days go by, the feeling of being loved diminishes.
the steps of yours are no longer at the same pace of mine.
sometimes i just wonder where i stand.
swayed by the loving words in the past, disappointed by the actions today.

where is the love,
i don seem to feel it.


anymore.

i don feel loved,


anymore.

to ******, u have a really sweet boyfriend.

fucked up race

i cant get over the fact that the race was screwed up.


what was wrong with u shoving and stepping my spike shoe u bitch.
2 years of training has gone down to the drain. how i wish i could pull ur hair right now bitch.

anyway, thanks to all who have been supporting me all these days.
yes i know, shit happens. but still, i cant get over it. special thanks to cjc n tjc..thanks for the concern.

and... i go n cry out loud now.

thanks for the pink glossy havaianas slippers girls!
tmr is 800m finals. long awaiting. come to think of it, the excitement isnt really here n i don think i'm ready to hit my personal best. muscles still feeling soooo slack after all the stridings and floatings. i guess i'll just go there and give all out in the race.

to my MAN,
thanks for believing in me all this while. i'll never forget those times u woke up early in the morning and trained with me. thanks for being there to support and remind me of my pacing.
although we still have some disagreements over training methods, i cant deny that u have really helped me so much so much in the running technique. love u so much. AND I WANNA PROVE MY LOVE FOR YOU BY BREAKING SCHOOL RECORD TMR IN NATIONALS. and even if it is impossible, i'm still aiming for top 8. trust me to bring back a good timing for u. the next race and probably my last 800m goes out to you. i'll be thinking of you throughout the 800m.

i hate waiting. especially when it stretches to 1 hr. what the fuck is wrong with u.

today received a nike bag. bought by victor,selestine,xinwei, amanda and jeffrey =) thank you peepss! another one more week to 800m finals.

birthday weekend

friday:
thanks to all the councillors who celebrated my birthday and oh yah! happy birthday to nicole and azhar! july babies rock! Thank you naz for baking nice looking but taste 'yummy' cake! SINCERITY WORS!lovess.

received presents from some peeps. this yr seems to be like a ty bear year for me.

16 ty bears, a red checkers handbag, 'eadelin' customised hp chain from joseph.
1 winnie-a-pooh from nicole.
1 precious tots porcelain container, a pair of earrings (butterflies) n a love letter from jocelyn.
2 ty bears from kikuuuu.
spamming wishes from everyone. sorry! my phone was switched off =)

saturday:
i was soooooo lazy!!!!! so only went out in the late evening. nothing much. but i enjoyed the day with joseph n mahjonging with jiawei n dean. ended my birthday with pong pong hu! to queen n joelyn, i want a post celebration.won be lazy by then. hahahas.

sunday:
went out with superman to plaza sing. got smth special. HEHEHEHES. a blink on the finger. and den! a surprise but not a surprise for jojo. stupid hanjie lah! boarded the same as us. den jiawei went to hide behind the bus stop advertisement. anyway! thanks to all the canoeing guys =)

monday:
ok. i'm sorry for the previous entry. but i've learnt smth is that, we all have flaws. so, make a wise decision if u want to accept that person flaws, especially someone whom you love.

today. went down to macritchie to find superman. HE GOT INTO SEMI-FINALS! WEEEEEES!!!

jiayou for tmr alright! superman can make it!

to queennie: thanks for accompanying me to eunos.

to chenghao n weimin: sorry for the trouble worrr!!!

there is no need to be apologetic for being yourself. so u can keep the sacarsm. at least i , or rather we have found out the true side of each other. so for good, let's make the decision. i've been thinking a lot, especially duing those times waiting. thanks for this period, a period of knowing u deeper. and in the midst of understanding u, my heart got thrashed. ur actions bring insecurity and ur words hurt. u're not the only one feeling fucked up. u're not the only one giving in. btw, there should be a distance between us from now on. i feel threatened by the things u did to me. do u realise that these days, i cant complete my words? u can break free now. u're just not u. blame on the smses, that i found the differences. so lets just snap the stringe for good.

fuck off to those who are still acting in font of me. don make me spit at u

http://www.rjcat.com/schsports/sectrack/ss_home.php?mypage=results/school-tpjc.inc

yesterday's run was rather messy and distracting. eadelin, stop day dreaming. u left only one chance on 16th july. really need to take my mind off from the breaking school's record idea and focus my 800m finals. time is running out. no more shit thoughts. just train and get the sexy timing. received some birthday presents today. [ in advance wor ] eadelin is turning to 18 tonight! hurray!

800m heats today at cck stadium. scary